Wednesday, March 26, 2008

to be given a shot when you're downcast.

Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own - U2

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can you hear me when I
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it

Sometimes you can't make it on your own

here's a link to it.

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Did 2 hours of driving yesterday. 2 more left for next week and voila! , here comes Doomsday. Don't know why the instructor said we - sister included - don't have to practise the test routes. Will see how it goes. I shall wait.

Need some help from you, yeah, you there.
Has anyone got any information or some details about courses outside school regarding form 6 English Literature? Or even any school with teachers teaching this subject.
If yes, do e-mail me or just let me know here.
Thanks a bunch!

Till then, adeus.

Monday, March 24, 2008

(none) : the sequel

Easter Evangelistic Night is of the past. A bit relieved for now.
Things went all right. Very few guests came due to the rain that Saturday. Jalan Genting Kelang was flooded.
Wasn't good at group sharing. Am supposed to share John 3 : 16 to some non-believers in a small group. Didn't explain in detail. Well, it's like fitting a square peg into a round hole.

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4 hours of driving lessons till Doomsday. Getting nervous.

Dreamt of getting my hair cut. Very short. Looks pretty good. Slightly terrified. Wonder if I could try it out. Probably too scared to try. Never mind that.

Driving. I just don't like it. It bothers me. To manoeuver a vehicle. To have to be alert all the time. Knowing that anything might happen if something went wrong.

Currently waiting for the list of eligible students qualified to enter Form 6. Am still unsure of which subjects to take. English Lit. I doubt, but I hope I'm able.

Until next time, good day to you.

It's in safe hands. It misses the owner though.

Friday, March 21, 2008

a Friday too good to be true.

Thank you, Lord. For all that You've done for us.

For God so loved the world, that He gave His One and Only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.

John 3 : 16

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

none II

I'll be waiting. 3 months. don't be sorry. just don't. I'm alright. I'll wait. Sure, I will.

Take lots of care alright.

With love.

first tag. (by elaine chong and xiowei)

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
- i've got lots of sources. all time? my parents. i wouldn't be here if it weren't for them. haha

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
- sheryiin - to keep on nagging on how we'll have to do this and that to survive. ( no offence! )
- michelle yung han - to talk about art, crafts, animation, church, society, people, without realising that we're actually stranded.
- mingwai - to cheer everyone up and do first aid at the same time. : ) just in case.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
- anywhere worth exploring. where i can take unlimited pictures of all things around.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- i don't usually remember my dreams.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- if the sun comes out. if circumstances permit. yes.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- most probably my family. yeah.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- keep it for emergencies. part of it to charity. i'll buy art materials, too! to stock up. guidebooks and tools that are usually not affordable. and lots of novels... and more novels. investment, anyone?

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- that depends. but i guess i don't need to for now : )

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- elaine : (not very close, but i'll do it anyway) has a sweet smile, looks good with short hair, and i'd say she's quite quiet (to me lah, that's what i think)
- xiowei : very cheerful, laughs a lot (that's a good thing), and has a pretty impressive blog : )

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- being understanding, able to share thoughts and feelings through thick and thin, but i do hope he knows jesus - the redeemer.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
- inconsiderate people. anytime. anywhere.

13. What is your ambition?
- don't know which road to take now. remembered primary school teacher used to fill in 'hakim' for me during standard one. haha. seriously, i've no idea.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
- like what Bryan said, if it's a serious matter, point to me. if it's trivial, keeping quiet sounds very cunning though. still. keep quiet lah. heheh.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- I'd say religion if it's considered a thing. believing that, there's someone who's in control over all things and knows you best even before you even existed, it is a comfort to know I'm deeply loved by the One Above.

16. Are you a shopaholic ?
- when it comes to books, Yes! and things related to art & craft especially papers, Yes! other things, maybe not.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
- elaine : cool
- xiowei : sweet

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
- have to keep myself reminded that i need to think before i speak or do anything. and to remind myself that i need God all the time. and He's in control and has everything planned in advance.

19. Name a song which got stuck in your head first thing this morning, and you can't help but keep it. Are you happy about it?
- A Bad Dream by Keane. yeah, quite happy about it. lovely songs.

20. What do you wish to have now?
- a good night's rest.

Tagging the following :(only 5 though)

Michelle Yung Han (if possible)
MingWai (after 3 months. that's if this post is read)


Monday, March 17, 2008

the mind (or rather the lens) sees.

two hearts
- glad to have spent some time with mingwai this morning. really. though it's a short while this time. i'll be waiting for you when you're back, then... take care.

the world does not revolve around us. rather, we revolve around each other, amigos. and around God. sometimes we gotta admit that we're all selfish. keep in mind - we're not the centre of attention. other things matter, too. yah?

that's all for now. was just playing around taking shots at home. so, until we meet next time, Adeus!

p.s. skipped appointment with the dentist. haha. driving was alright. take care, everyone!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

(none) updated.

life can be just like this paper. you get sprayed. through obstacles. trials and errors. challenges. and well, from God. sometimes they all hurt. sometimes they come and go without us even noticing. we just get sprayed. layer by layer till we're all smooth and shiny. and sometimes, we can see something else within ourselves, that, we're actually influencing the people around us as well. our actions. our thoughts ( spoken, of course ). our words. and every other thing.

some of the outcomes may look like this. those being influenced by wise actions. clear thinking. and kind words to others. we just don't realise that people observe people. we're either being influenced or are the centre of influence.

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here are two of the pictures i took after the decoration prep. really really liked them, this round. lots of effort put into it. yet, without the helping hands of the 'ground' members in youth, these wouldn't even be here to have their pictures taken. easter programme - next saturday.

the orthodontic clinic text-ed me to remind me to come on time, 11am, on monday. probably won't be going.

next week will be a busy week. with good friday and easter sunday. three consecutive visits to church. eh?

gonna log off. very tired. glad i could go for 2 hours of badminton though... it's been a while since i had a sweat-out. a real sweat-out.

take care. to those off to national service. mingwai to kelantan. yee teng to pahang. jun yan to sabah (i think). and others who are involved as well. have a blast, then. will miss you a lot.

guten nacht.

Thursday, March 13, 2008


resuming driving lessons starting next week.

test is due April the second.

waking up early tomorrow to head to church for decoration prep (nine in the morn till three pm).

appointment, with the perfectionist dentist, who insisted that he'd glue two permanent retainers behind my teeth - so that I'll not have to keep on wearing removable ones - and I don't want to have metals glued to my teeth, so mom will have to settle this issue, Monday the seventeenth, 11am, at Subang.

leaders retreat from March twenty-eighth to the thirtieth. (driving test the following week)

not forgetting that I'll be registering for Form 6 soon. and from what I heard from my sisters, you'll have to work hard, hard to stay in the game.

it has been and will be busy in the months to come. someone's going off to Kelantan in five days' time. and I won't be seeing him for another three months.

not in a not-good-mood mode. I'm alright. Things could get pretty tangled up whenever there's a lot of problematic strings tied together. add some twigs. and some extra pairs of hands trying to untangle the knot, it'll be tightened up, somewhat.

resting in the Peace of the most High. I'll be trying to do that. I'll leave that to Him. He knows best and I know I can't handle everything. nevermind that.

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Let it be. Let it be.

* * *

( I guess I'm just tired... hmm )

Monday, March 10, 2008


translation : Portuguese for Wednesday.

half looking forward to it *that's because I'll be meeting my amigos - friends - whom I've really missed since last year's grueling exams...
not really dreading it *since I can only wait for the verdict...
I was wondering, it's only a piece of faxed-over paper from the lembaga peperiksaan. and all this time we've been waiting, and waiting, waiting for the number-letter 'combo' behind the 11 (or so) subjects we've taken. and that's it... Every thing's gonna be like any other day *except for the 'additional' feelings, including :
"yeay, finally I got what I've been studying like mad for." , or
"hmph, how can they do this to me?" , or even
"gah, it's only what the gov ordered the teachers to do - giving us higher grades. not worth celebrating either.hmph..."
* * *
anyway, whatever happens, live with it lah... it's not the end of the world and all...
like what I've already posted (if you're observant) : "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."

that's all for now. and thanks for coming over here, the readers, I'm referring to you lah...
Adeus! (also in Portuguese)

Friday, March 07, 2008

Thursday, March 06, 2008

selamat datang

After all the hard work (without sweating of course)... papier mache is given a greener look. Much better than the dull one before editing. With loads of help from mingwai. A LOT. I'm pleased, indeed, to present you my blog - though you must understand that this author will not maintain the rate of posting updates - with the title bearing the meaning 'chewed paper', which sounds gory. Never underestimate what they can do, really.

Wednesday, D-DAY, is 6 sunsets away... I wonder if we would experience insomnia. right, huh? For some, different story lah, staying up until sunrise, or sleep straight away 10 seconds after getting to bed. Be it tears of joy or sorrow, face the fact lah. Fair or unfair, accept the truth. I wish all of you the best. and don't ever expect too much. Never know what's gonna happen. agh, why bother anyway...

I'm a lil disappointed with the 30 sec songs in the playlist. Nothing i can do. So, i'll try not to complain... they're very nice. maybe i can still forgive them. sigh.

This should be sufficient for now, i suppose... Happy listening to Jamie Cullum's tunes. He sure is good. Till then, jaga diri baik-baik. Tired of waiting for D-day, but partly dreading to see that slip of paper in my hands... agh...

p.s. the image posted above is just an image. on the occasion of this blog and it's first entry 'blooming'. nevermind that.